Fear always dominates, she always wants to be the centre of attention and in charge;
She is usually the one who makes the final decisions, together with her entourage doubt and pessimism;
She always invites low self-esteem, loneliness and anger to join the party, and they always show up;
Anger is the life of the party, she likes to reminisce and is on constant replay, the rejection, lonely valentines, the exes are her favourite stories;
She feeds off of them, and when anger feed, she tends to build walls- the NO LOVE ALLOWED wall;
She claims it is what’s best for me-unforgiveness is always a late comer but she is always followed by resentment, bitterness and hostility.
Even though I host the party, I am never really invited because I always bring hope;
Hope is always at the back of the room, always trying to blend with the wall, she is NEVER welcome;
Fear and anger say they will be keeping me safe, low self-esteem and loneliness will keep me company;
Resentment, bitterness and hostility are always there to catch me.
How can I say no when they have never let me down?